Well Boy Howdy, that was hard

I have been trying to re register my domain for two weeks, could not figure out WTF the problem was, it appears our browser was the problem? Anyway, it is fixed and yay I am back for another year of blogtastisticness.

So many things have been happening here in our world. 21 days to the wedding, and I am unrealistically calm about the whole situation. Eh, it is a wedding not a frigging fundraiser.

Speaking of, I went out to my school yesterday and met with the Student Development office to ask about using the gym for my fundraiser. I was told that the school was far to conservative to allow a rock fundraiser to happen there. Well, after anger and discouragement, I wrote the dean of students. Well I have a meeting with her Monday afternoon. I have a feeling that I will get backing. But, I don't want to get an ego.

I have an offer of a job interview. I worked 3 hours this week. 3. Frigging hours. And I know that my position is per diem, but really? So this position is an office job, doing some quality control paperwork. I can keep an afternoon caseload, but have a steady income as well. And it is office work. In an office. Yay!

And fundraiser is full steam ahead, despite not having a venue. I will find one, but in the meantime, don't gt in my way.

Tonight I was honored to be able to attend an annual fundraiser for democratic support. I met some wonderful, wonderful people. I was inspired, I was moved, I was left motivated. It was a wonderful way to see what needs doing and connect to people that think like me. Although, really do many people think like me??

Another busy weekend ahead I think. Community service work, Harvest Fest, homework, fundraising, preparations for a meeting.

Sometimes I don't believe this is my life. Sometimes I am in awe of what has happened in three short years. I was self loathing, I thought I would and could never make a change. I thought that everything I had heard for years was true and unchanging. And here I am, dipping my toes into politics, making positive change within my own community, helping others, working, learning and raising some great kids. And if I let it, for a split second I can imagine it all being blown away. If I fuck off for just a split second, I can lose it all.

And to know that beside me I have the perfect person. One who lifts me when I need it, reassures me over and over when I ask him is this right, is it ok? A person that normally likes to take charge, that can step back and let me shine. A person who spends his day painting to please me, will clean the cat box without complaint, get up after only a couple hours sleep to herd children into clean clothes and breakfast so I can sleep and extra hour, knowing I will do the same tomorrow. A man who praises everything I am, not do, that I am. I couldn't be more grateful, or thankful. Maybe that is why I am cucumber calm about the wedding. I don't doubt. And to know he is willing to give me everything I need and more just to see me smile. Well, why wouldn't I be ready.